My friend (s), life is far from perfect, only some claim perfection; they would be mistaken. Failure is part of life, “the master has failed as many times as the student”. Falling down happens, but it is not the end. There is light after the chaotic darkness; believe it. Do not quit before the miracle occurs. Sometimes we need extra help; I have. You’re not alone with that. Stay strong, believe in yourself; if you’re doubting yourself, stop! This is your life, not your family’s or friend’s. Take care of yourself, the best you can, now, with what you have.