Honesty

My cat is sitting next me; I told him it was going to be a great “bleeping” day. Anyone who knows me well knows both of my love for my cats and my honesty. Believe that it has not always been the case; ask my loved ones! I often stole money from my parents and lied, cheated; was not forthright about my drinking, drug use, or eating disorder and their severity. I am absolutely NOT a Pollyana and my life is far from perfect it’s ridiculous. I face fears, death, and hate on a regular basis. I find that as long as I am frank and open about these; I am the better for it. If I am not forthcoming I will supress these things by other means ; I would rather SHOW my ass than BE one. Honesty is much more than the obvious; it is getting down to the nitty-gritty, one’s core being. I find it to be extremely helpful to discuss myself with other people, those whom I am positive will not gossip or use my woes as water cooler fodder. Foremost, I must be honest with MYSELF and brave enough to admit my frailties. I am 100 % willing to admit my flaws if it means my release from anger, shame, self-pity, and sadness. I have had many things happen over the course of the last two weeks; things that would normally cause depression and turmoil. I was able to discuss them at length, and the stress was thus lessened; if one is in the midst of chaos PLEASE tell someone; no one is an island. I often joke about being Wonder Woman, but Wonder Woman had to be trained and needed guidance (plus she has the Justice League to help her). As human beings, we rely on each other and seek counsel from others. We often LEARN to be honest, usually a lifetime of covering up and lying must be undone. It is a process, not unlike any other; but needs to be acted upon if we are to be truly happy.

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