As I’ve said, life gets lifey. Around July of last year, I was faced with an atrocious situation. I could not eat or sleep for a while; I was threatened with hospitalization. I felt as though my life was out of control, and mine to navigate, yet I could not manage the trajectory. Something had to give; then I remember, it was a Friday morning and I woke up, went downstairs and didn’t have an appetite, but ate anyway. It dawned on me that often times, we do not what we want, but what is best. I did not want to eat, yet I did it anyway; I knew I NEEDED to. Same can be said for most situations; instead of overthinking and dwelling, just do. What’s best is often incredibly hard; this was not my first time dealing with something life altering. I have been faced with the suicide of family members and many huge personal woes. I have found that when I tried to think my way well, it never worked. I don’t think myself well, I live myself well. You can read all the self-help books you want (nothing against self-help books!), but unless you implement them in your life; you are wiser, yes, but no different. It is not until you take action that you will see results. I can read books on working out until I know everything there is to know about fitness, but unless I actually EXERCISE, I will be the exact same. So it is with life; change lies not in mere words, but rather deeds.
Knowing and doing are different beasts; this is NOT to say knowledge is bad!I am constantly reading textbooks and works on social issues, philosophy, psychology, etc., however, unless I’m living what I read, I am talking the talk, rather than walking the walk. It would be rather caddish of me if I were to speak on happiness and overcoming, yet not be taking my own advice, I stumble sometimes; have weak moments. I am not always on my A-game, to be sure; at some point, sometimes you just have to act. Not always how you want, but you do what is right.